Eyvonne Sharp

Real faith in a hard world.

For days that seem purposeless

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I back the old gold Maxima into my spot in the parking garage. I try to overlook the crumbles of french fries in the floorboard and the single tennis shoe in the back seat. Another day. More meetings, problems, processes, tasks. What’s the purpose? I open the car door and my heel hits the concrete and my thoughts shift. Words come; words that are as much a part of me as the names of my children. “In the beginning was the Word.”

My shoulders relax as I remind myself. Before time, there was the Word.

“And the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God.”

The Word — the ultimate communication of truth, love, goodness, hope, mercy and grace. I’ve hidden these words deep inside for days like today.

I say them over and over. “In the beginning was the Word. And the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God.”

“All things were made through him. And without him was not anything made that was made.” The words come easily, more freely than my own thoughts.

Now, it flows. I roll the sentences around in my head.

“In him was life and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness but the darkness has not overcome it.” Another rendering, “the darkness did not comprehend it.” How true this is. The darkness cannot understand the light.

“There was a man sent from God whose name was John.”

John intrudes. In the middle of all this talk about truth, and light, and beginning, and God — is John. He seems out of place.

“He came as a witness to bear witness about the light, that all might believe through him. He was not the light, but came to bear witness about the light.”

But he is not out of place. John made the paths straight, prepared the way, told the story. What good is a great story if it’s not told? It’s my job too. To tell.

“The true light, which enlightens everyone, was coming into the world. He was in the world and the world was made through him, yet the world did not know him.”

The world did not know him. It did not know him then and it does not know him now.

“He came to his own and his own people did not receive him.” The very people who were told the signs, who were to be the light-bearers did not recognize him. I’ve done this. I do this still.

“But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name,”

My pace quickens. My heart rate increases in anticipation.

“he gave the right to become children of God.,”

Oh the joy of these words. “To all who did receive him.” That’s me. “Who believed in his name.” That’s me too. “He gave the right to become children of God.” Could it be possible? I have the right to be called a child, the beloved offspring, the direct family of God? It’s not a privilege. It’s a right.

This is joy!

“Who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.”

The words come to a natural crescendo, building to a climax as breathtaking as Handel’s Messiah.

“And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son of the Father full of grace and truth.”

I say it fast and the words run together.

The Word, the truth of the universe, the ultimate communication from God put on skin and lived among us. He was full of grace and truth.

“And from his fullness we all have received, grace upon grace.” Upon grace, upon grace, upon grace. That is what I have.

“For the law was given to Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.”

The hard and rigid law was given. Grace and truth came. It embodied. It ate. It lived. It walked. It wept. It touched. It bled. It died. It lived again.

My shoes go clip-clop on the brick sidewalk with these words whispered to myself and to the Creator who was there in the beginning and who is here now.

There is purpose in it all.

Your word I have treasured in my heart,
That I may not sin against You. — Psalm 119:11

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  • Joy

    It’s good to read your words today, and always. It is so encouraging to realize we walk in Grace and with purpose. Thanks for the post!

  • Sharon O

    Good encouraging words this morning as my day begins, thank you.

  • r.elliott

    We are neighbors today at Em’s…great way to start my day…so much truth…just wonderful reminders of who we are because of whose we are. have a great day…blessings~

  • Oh! This is such a beautiful post.
    I’ve just recently begun memorizing that passage.
    A few months ago when I read “grace upon grace” it took (and still takes) my breath away. He is incredible.

    Thank you for sharing.
    It blessed my heart this morning.

    • @Sarah,

      Words can’t describe the joy that John 1 has brought me.. being able to recall it at any moment when I need to remember Who He Is.

      Grace upon grace upon grace. And we have the right to become children, and grace came… I could say it over and over.

      John was a poet, I’m convinced.

  • ha…do you realize how quick you had me reading that…smiles…to a beautiful crescendo…this was a refreshing bit of the word and your own journey through them…thanks for this one…smiles.

  • I love the pace of this piece and the TRUTH. I love that you think of the WORD through your day. And now, I’m thinking about him. :)

  • This is beautiful. I love how you incorporated each scripture into your life. Isn’t that what we need to do all the time?

    If you’d like, this post would be so encouraging for the link-up at Do Not Depart. We’re sharing links there about memorizing the Word, and you obviously have done it amazingly well.

    http://donotdepart.com/hiding-his-word-in-my-heart-may-link-up

  • This is truly beautiful. Both the truths in John 1 and the say you have weaved them into the mundane of our lives.

    Thank you for sharing!

  • This was very encouraging and beautiful writing.

  • Love this post and His word that’s mingled with your through out. Just how life should be… Slowing the day long enough to listen to His word, His promises that are hidden in my heart as well. Blessings!

  • I’m with you on memorizing John 1! It lit me up to get to the part of the post when I realized we were savoring the same piece of bread!

    Beautiful post and great insights!

  • Sigh. Love this.