When faith looks different than you thought it would
… What did you go out into the wilderness to seek? …. (Matthew 11:7)
This is an important question asked by our Lord. What did you go out to seek?
Sometimes we begin by seeking what we think we need: relief, comfort, affirmation, direction. We usually discover something very different that what we set out to find.
When we find God, sometimes he looks like a strange man in strange clothes who eats strange food. We are promised that if we seek God that we will find him. But we are never promised that he will be what we expected when we get there.
And so, we’re forced to choose. We must choose between following the God we imagined we’d find and following the one who reveals himself to us. They are rarely the same.
This sounds simple, but our hearts deceive us, our vision is cloudy, and we have an enemy who always whispers lies. It is enough to tell Him we want to follow as he really is while we acknowledge our inability to see clearly. If our hearts are true in this desire, we will constantly relinquish more of ourselves as we discover previously unknown mysteries about our loving Father.
The giving up will be painful but it will also be healing. As we relinquish our false assumptions, our silly notions and our selfish desires we will find what we set out for in the beginning: comfort, affirmation, direction and most of all peace.